This week was a lenient week. Instead of continuing the strict weight loss routine, I wanted to give myself a break. At march, I don’t have any cheat days because I wanted to lost weight for the Senior trip. So, I decided to make a cheat day as if this will be my last chance eating the things I want to eat.
At Friday, I went to VIPS with my dearest friends and teachers. I have waited for this cheat day for a very long time. A lot of my friends said that I never looked this much excited and I couldn’t agree more. There was a lot of food that I couldn’t eat for more than two months. I ate a huge amount of carbohydrates but I didn’t feel guilty that much because I felt I deserved a cheat day. However, I should have known the damages of cheat day. After a happy cheat day, I was rationalising myself and giving excuses. To be honest, I really missed the days when I ate whatever I want for dinner and snack. On Saturday, not only I broke my rules for eating a bowl of cold noodles for dinner, I spend the night watching a movie with a bowl of granola. Except for hiking with my parents, I didn’t workout at all after the cheat day and saw myself eating more and more in an unhealthy way. Eating those chocolates and granola bars gave me happiness. However, that didn’t last that long and I missed those days when I was able to control my fake hunger. I don’t have an eating disorder but I DO believe that I need to learn the difference between fake hunger and real hunger. I saw this post on Instagram and it said “Fake hunger is when you are craving a specific food and real hunger is when you feel so hungry that you can eat anything.” I’m a little clueless of how I will learn how to control my hunger but I’m ready to learn. I want to control myself even after a good cheat day. Now, I have exactly 30 days until the Senior trip. Next week, I cannot go to boxing because I didn’t pay for it yet and I have such a busy schedule. That means I would have to go to the gym with my own will. It will be challenging and I will definitely come up with excuses such as “why don’t I just study for more hours than going to the gym?” However, I found out that going to the gym and taking a quick shower takes only an hour and I CAN invest at least an hour and do my work as well. Cheat days were good but I also allowed myself a bold feedback. This is my workout record and plan for this week and next week
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